When I posted initially about making Monopoly in Excel I mentioned wanting to create computer players with different strategies to compete against each other. After running the game several times I could analyze the output to determine the optimal strategy. What I ended up making was a game for…
#CrystalKay has a new song out and 15 year old Jasmine is pretty damn hyped about it.
The phrase “black on black crime” needs to go. 90% of all crime in America stays within a racial group yet only this one has a name.
The problem is that whenever something you have wanted starts to peak just above the horizon, it also brings all your faults to the surface for some reason. Every jiggle on your body, every stupid thing you’ve ever done, every lazy moment you’ve ever had, every horrible thing you’ve been through, every word you wish you could take back. It’s a purposeful distraction, to be sure. The deliver (whatever/whoever it is) will even act like that it’s an act of love, a saving grace to hit you with “reality” before someone else does.
It’s bullshit, of course. That dark part of your brain, that “saving grace”, is really just afraid to hope. That the thing you’ve hoped for could actually turn out just fine. Hell, maybe even better than fine. The dark deliver isn’t ready to hear that.
Being hopeless is easier than believing . But the results of any event are unaffected by how you spent the time before the reveal. So why not spend that time in the warmth of faith? If it does in fact not turn out well, what have you lost? You will be in the same emotional boat as you would have been if you spent all that time in a pessimistic abyss of self doubt. And, in my experience at least, I’ve noticed I’ve bounced back from disappointment faster when I didn’t spend the time beforehand already suffering from the consequences of an event that hadn’t happened yet.
Obviously it’s not easy to just stop doing a learned thought pattern, especially if what I’m talking about falls more along the lines of full blown depression rather than just dark moments. But hopefully this is something you can use to fight back.
Never forget that the odds that something might turn out bad are just as high as the odds that it might turn out good.
Just finished writing episode one of my new web series. Clearly that calls for a selfie!